I’m not going to lie, I was hella stressed. You know that white kid in your class that doesn’t really talk with anyone and has a geeky hobbie? Yup. Hi. It started when I was very young to be honest. Rather than going out with my friends I’d prefer to watch my dad play computer games. Then, I got older and wanted to play myself. And I did. And now here I am.21 and I could never be less ready for anything. I’m scared of talking with people. Scared? I’m terrified. I sometimes get paralyzed with thought of having to call someone. I even check my emails 10 times before sending them. As if one mistake could destroy my life. I mean, it kinda could, depending on the mistake… Sigh. Yeah, hello there. Ah, have I said I like to write as well? Guess how many of my work was published on this blog out of everything that I wrote? 

Yup. Nothing, haha! No, but seriously. I’m so anxious about whatever I do. And there’s no stop to it too. Even calling my best friend is stressful enough to cause a fast heartbeat. In a bad meaning obviously. And you know what is happening today? I’m having my first day at my first, slightly fictional job. My online friends didn’t know what it means, so I might as well explain it. I need my employer to sign some papers that I worked hard, so I can get promoted to next class. It’s nothing bad for a normal person, really. People my age have experience working in fast-food restaurants and shops, so this is just a deal that takes their free time away. For me, on the other hand, it’s a reason not to be able to close my eyes the night before. Right now I’m so stressed, I feel like puking. I guess it could be worse, because if my mentor was a guy, I’d be in a lot of trouble. At least I can be a shy and innocent student, and the lady is not going to be hard on me… I hope..? 

I’m not going to lie, I was hella stressed. You know that white kid in your class that doesn’t really talk with anyone and has a geeky hobbie? Yup. Hi. It started when I was very young to be honest. Rather than going out with my friends I’d prefer to watch my dad play computer games. Then, I got older and wanted to play myself. And I did. And now here I am.21 and I could never be less ready for anything. I’m scared of talking with people. Scared? I’m terrified. I sometimes get paralyzed with thought of having to call someone. I even check my emails 10 times before sending them. As if one mistake could destroy my life. I mean, it kinda could, depending on the mistake… Sigh. Yeah, hello there. Ah, have I said I like to write as well? Guess how many of my work was published on this blog out of everything that I wrote? 

Yup. Nothing, haha! No, but seriously. I’m so anxious about whatever I do. And there’s no stop to it too. Even calling my best friend is stressful enough to cause a fast heartbeat. In a bad meaning obviously. And you know what is happening today? I’m having my first day at my first, slightly fictional job. My online friends didn’t know what it means, so I might as well explain it. I need my employer to sign some papers that I worked hard, so I can get promoted to next class. It’s nothing bad for a normal person, really. People my age have experience working in fast-food restaurants and shops, so this is just a deal that takes their free time away. For me, on the other hand, it’s a reason not to be able to close my eyes the night before. Right now I’m so stressed, I feel like puking. I guess it could be worse, because if my mentor was a guy, I’d be in a lot of trouble. At least I can be a shy and innocent student, and the lady is not going to be hard on me… I hope..?